Ah, profit!

I have been playing 11$ SnGs on Pokerstars and, after 170 games I am up 140$. doesnt seem like much, but if you look at me on Sharkscope.com (my username is "Orbit Orange") I went through a couple phases. I won a few early, then went on TILT OF DOOM. Was down about 130$. Stayed there for about 50 games, then I think I figured it out. Like, I knew the theory before, but wouldn't implement it correctly. I think I have finally gotten a handle on it. I can only get better!

Vegas dreams... slowly translating to reality.

PS I'm going on a trip to Vegas this August, cant wait for the glory.

Mastery - George Leonard

Mind blowing. Buy this book. If you are too cheap to buy it, read it free online. I don't have the address handy, so you'll have to figure it out.

SICK book. Thanks to the RSD blog for turning me onto it. This shit should be taught from birth.

Relapse...

So we pulled into port San Diego the other day. Went to a sushi bar with some friends. The waitress misinterpreted my order for a diet coke as a jack and coke. I took a drink when it came. thgen was like "fuck, first drink in 8 months". Th3e waitress apologized profusely, but I'm not an alcoholic or anything. Everyone said that a sip didn't really reset the clock. I didn't really care though and decided to drink that night. It turned out to be a shitty night and I'm not going to drink anymore. I was proud of going 8 months without drinking, and I threw it away. Whateva, start over. No more fuckups.

word

Progress

Ive finished a couple poker books and have been playing with people on the ship in one table tournaments. Im about 60$ up. Can't wait till I have an internet connection and time. This is going to happen.

Bigtime yo!

Poker

Won 80$ the other day. Was just playing with friends on the ship. 2 games. Won them both. Cash money fo' real.

Lessons learned:
I can do this. Like, Vegas glory times in my future.
Don't let how much you have already invested be a factor in staying in the hand.
Some people get pissed when you raise pre-flop. Fuck 'em.

First time at the tables

Went and played some poker yesterday. Lost about 60 bucks in 2 hours playing 3-6$. Won one pot and split another. Its a lot more fast paced than I had expected. If I had time to count my outs and judge pot odds I'd have done better. But whateva yo, Its just experience. I'll get better. Plus, you can't garauntee yourself breaking even until 1400 hours anyway.

Learned a lot, thats what is important.

Moving Toward Values

Most Important => Least Important

Adventure
Freedom
Passion
Success
Intimacy
Power
Health
Comfort
Security
Love

Goals

I typed up and prined off all the morning and evening power questions. I am going to tape them in my rack (3'x7' coffin like bed on the ship) so I review them every time I go to sleep (which really has nothing to do with the time of day)

I'm not a big fan of metaphors, it seems to me people take the metaphor too far and lose the initial concept pretty often. But I'm going to give it a couple days and see if I use any.

Personal Development Goals Years to completion
Learn to play poker at a professional level. 1
Master my social life, learn languages, have adventures. 5
Go to the gym 4 times a week. 1
Take dancing lessons. 1
Play a musical instrument. (Not sure which yet) 3


Career/Buisiness/Economic Goals
Earn 100k a year 2
Be able to travel and work at my own leisure. 2
Invest a portion of my earnings. 1
Financial independence by age 33. 10
Figure out a budget for living in Seattle. 1 month
Be known as a driven and inventive person. 4

Toys/Adventure Goals
Buy land. 10
Live in Las Vegas. 1-2
Spend time around the world. 3
Buy an Italian suit. 2
Visit: Australia, England, Sweden, Japan, Russia, France, 5
Brazil, NYC, Turkey

Contribution Goals
Give some money to the church. 1

Contribution doesn't really interest me. I do like teaching people what I know and seeing them improve themselves, but as far as volunteering at a soup kitchen or something, ugh.

The kind of person I need to become in order to achive al that I want:
Driven, motivated, unwavering. Uses time efficiently. Resourceful, humble, learning.

I am already on the path. 6 months ago I quit a lot of things that worked against me:
Reading fiction, TV, drinking, videogames.

Transformational Vocabulary

pissed => disenchanted
lazy => storing energy
scared => excited

Badass words to encorporate into my vocabulary

Pageantry
Vivacious
Relish
Passionate
Serenity
Majestic

List of ways to change how I feel, to go from pain to pleasure, and to feel good immediately.

"This is SPARTA!"
Jumping
Going to the club
Having sex
Working out
Remembering glory times
Happy music
Meditating
Writing
Hanging out with positive friends
Bitchy girls in the club <= Not sure why I love these so much
Imitating people
Talking gibberish to tools
The Cyclone
Singing
Improving myself
Learning about my passions
Talking about my passions
Making progress with my goals

Beliefs

I will acieve my goals. Here is my story. Comments and advice appreciated.

I finished "Awaken the giant within" and am rereading and posting the associated work. I realized that with about 6 months in the community, that I have already achieved massive improvements in my life and drive. I am not a chode anymore.

EMPOWERING BELIEFS

I am smart enough to become whoever I want to be in life.
I deserve extreme success.
I have friends and role models who take active interest in my future.
I can be better than anyone at anything.
My future is mine to make.
Negative people just don't know better.
I don't give a fuck what anyone thinks of me.
I am a good friend, son, and brother.
I am not my past.
My family loves me.

DISEMPOWERING BELIEFS

I am usually lazy.
People talk about what they don't understand.
Peole will give advice when they have no idea what they are talking about to make them look good.
I'm not the guy most people think I am.
The navy keeps me from achieving my goals as quickly as I want.
I am not free.

DISEMPOWERING => EMPOWERING

I am driven about things I am passionate about, and my future.
Everyone's opinion has some value.
People try to help me.
I make the best of my time in the navy.
My freedom is my own responsibility.